I’m turning 19 tomorrow.
So that’s pretty exciting.
I’ve had one crazy heck of a year. 18 was a whirlwind. It was full of laughter, smiles, sorrow, tears, disappointments, surprises, love, etc. etc. etc. Basically it was everything.
But most importantly? I learned a lot being 18. My life took turns in directions that I never expected. I went down roads that I never intended to travel. Down those roads, I learned that my worth is not measured by the amount of love that others show me and I learned that the biggest part of my life is God and that should never change. I learned that love is hard and requires a lot of sacrifice. I learned that letting go of things in my life is the hardest thing I’ll ever have to do. But it is the most freeing thing that I will ever do.
Here comes 19. It’s almost upon me. I’m not done learning all of the lessons that I was learning in 18.
But 19 means new goals. With 19, I’m going to do two things.
[1] I’m going to surrender everything to God. Everything. Surrender is my word of the year. All of the good and wonderful things will go to God. All of the sad and disappointing things will go to God. Everything. I surrender my entire life to my Lord. And I’m stepping back and letting Him take control.
[2] I’m also searching to fill the void within me. We all have a void inside ourselves. When man sinned against God in the garden, the perfect relationship with God was ruptured and it left a void inside of all of us. We try to fill the void with all sorts of things that we think will make us happy. But, the God is the only person who can fill that void. The ONLY one. I’ve been trying to fill that void in my life with all of the wrong things. I realize that none of those things will make me truly happy. Only God will. I mean, that spot was his originally. So I think it’s time for him to return.
So in order to fulfill these two goals, I’m opening my heart to God. I’m closing my eyes. I’m taking a deep breath. I’m chasing Him harder and faster than I ever have. I’m chasing Him up the mountains of life and through the storms of disappointment and hurt. I can see that sunshine at the top of the mountain. I can feel the warmth upon my skin.
It’s almost time for 19. And 19 is a new beginning. 19 is climbing mountains. 19 is strong. 19 is healed. 19 is whole. 19 is loved. 19 is worth it. And 19 CAN do this.
And this time?…it is so forreal.
So bring it, 19. Come at me.
I’ve had one crazy heck of a year. 18 was a whirlwind. It was full of laughter, smiles, sorrow, tears, disappointments, surprises, love, etc. etc. etc. Basically it was everything.
But most importantly? I learned a lot being 18. My life took turns in directions that I never expected. I went down roads that I never intended to travel. Down those roads, I learned that my worth is not measured by the amount of love that others show me and I learned that the biggest part of my life is God and that should never change. I learned that love is hard and requires a lot of sacrifice. I learned that letting go of things in my life is the hardest thing I’ll ever have to do. But it is the most freeing thing that I will ever do.
Here comes 19. It’s almost upon me. I’m not done learning all of the lessons that I was learning in 18.
But 19 means new goals. With 19, I’m going to do two things.
[1] I’m going to surrender everything to God. Everything. Surrender is my word of the year. All of the good and wonderful things will go to God. All of the sad and disappointing things will go to God. Everything. I surrender my entire life to my Lord. And I’m stepping back and letting Him take control.
[2] I’m also searching to fill the void within me. We all have a void inside ourselves. When man sinned against God in the garden, the perfect relationship with God was ruptured and it left a void inside of all of us. We try to fill the void with all sorts of things that we think will make us happy. But, the God is the only person who can fill that void. The ONLY one. I’ve been trying to fill that void in my life with all of the wrong things. I realize that none of those things will make me truly happy. Only God will. I mean, that spot was his originally. So I think it’s time for him to return.
So in order to fulfill these two goals, I’m opening my heart to God. I’m closing my eyes. I’m taking a deep breath. I’m chasing Him harder and faster than I ever have. I’m chasing Him up the mountains of life and through the storms of disappointment and hurt. I can see that sunshine at the top of the mountain. I can feel the warmth upon my skin.
It’s almost time for 19. And 19 is a new beginning. 19 is climbing mountains. 19 is strong. 19 is healed. 19 is whole. 19 is loved. 19 is worth it. And 19 CAN do this.
And this time?…it is so forreal.
So bring it, 19. Come at me.
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